Last night, I had what hubby and I refer to as an ‘eat beast’ – meaning no matter the amount of food I put inside my body, I am not satisfied and still want to eat more. I usually get this a couple of days before my period is due. It is hard for me to get full when I have this affliction, and despite a hearty supper, I needed something more. So we made oatmeal cookies. And I ate 7 of them. With a glass of milk.
But I stepped on the scale this morning and I am down to 192.7lbs! Woo :)
So in the battle of Me vs. Eat Beast, it is Me: 1 and Eat Beast: 0. Now I am well on track to be in the 180’s by Christmas/New Year. Or even in 2 weeks! If I keep losing 1lb per week, I will be 184.7 by Christmas :D
I’m feeling good. I can’t necessarily ‘see’ the changes yet, hubby says my tummy/love handles have shrunk, but they will naturally shrink/tone up on their own during the post-partum period anyway. A couple more pairs of jeans fit me now – but I bought most of my jeans when I was in the 180’s, so still a few more pounds to go for better comfort (i.e. when I sit down). I think I was in denial about my weight gain, so may not ‘see’ a change until I am drastically lighter.
But emotionally, I feel like this is something I can do, and get done. I read through my blogs from last time I was losing this exact same weight – I was impatient about how slowly I was losing, and I gave up at the first sign of free food (Thanksgiving & Christmas). This time, my whole mindset is different. I never had mini-goals before – I just wanted to be 140-150lbs, as soon as possible. But this time I set myself achievable goals to stay on track. First, getting under 200lbs and getting out of the obese category, and then I decided on setting 10lb milestones. My 190lb milestone is coming up soon!
And I also have a plan for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Pretty much eat what I want on those days ONLY. I am not the type of person who can turn down deep-fried turkey, buttery mashed potatoes, and fresh baked pumpkin pie. And apple/pear wine. The calories definitely add up, but I just have to eat normally the rest of the week, and I should get away with it. My current weight loss goals ‘end’ at the New Year, and from there I will re-evaluate. Hopefully I will be in the low 180’s by then, and I can decide either to go into maintenance while trying for another baby, or lose a little more weight juust to tip myself into the 170’s.